It Was Dead Long Ago but It's All Comin Back To Me Now

I dont know if this is all about my ego or else, but it seems like I cant go through with you
It's like I'm stuck and caged and chained and cant get the hell out.
I wanna go and be without you.
But do you know, honestly, I dont.

"cos I love you, but I cant take anymore
there's a look I cant describe in your eyes
yes we could try like we tried before
but you keep on tellin me those lies"
Do You Remember - Phil Collins

I still dream of you, I still look for you.
Sometimes I think about you.
And it seems like always, like forever, I wanna be with you...

BUT I HATE YOU!!!
You're the one who broke my heart, tear my hopes and dreams and wishes, and put me on the cold cold wet tears every night on my bed.
You put me on the high sky, feeling your kindness and all, and then crashed me on the hot rough ground, for your unbeatable ego and your thoughts of perfection.

You, yeah, you.
You got all what it's said to be perfect.
And you never think that I'm perfect.
No, you never.

WELL WHAT ABOUT YOU ANYWAY? FEELIN SO DAMN PERFECT, HUH?

I really need to get off of you.
Although I dont want it.
That's simply because I ...

"I finished crying in the instant that you left
and I cant remember where or when or how
and I banished every memory you and I had ever made.."
It's All Comin Back To Me - Meatloaf & Marion Raven