I'm Unable to Define

I am so sorry for the visual hazard caused by
the images I edited. I'm so amateur.
I have no photoshop installed, by the way.
I used Microsoft Power Point instead.
Thanks, Bill.

Meant to be a Mean

"lo cantik deh, pake pink..."

He might have forgotten when exactly he said to me so. Or maybe I'm not the only one who was pretty in pink for his eyes. But for me... that meant a lot.

Yes that meant a lot.

And his help for me just when I need that kind of help.
And his presence in almost nights that we spent hanging around the internet.
And his existence when I need somebody who listen.

That also meant a lot.

Meant. Why couldn't it be a mean?

Yes that could be a mean.

For his nonexistence when I want him to read my story.
For his arrogance left me hanging waiting for 10 hours until he replied me.
For his I'm-busy-contact-me-later.

That's so mean.

I remember he told me he got something for me, the thing he bought from his trip.
I remember he said "I'll give you two of these".
I remember... just almost everything!

How could he be so mean, when he's the one meaningful?

Boy Makan Bakwan

Boy Sitampan.
Pemakan Segala.
Segalanya Dimakan.
Ikan.
Ayam.
Kue Pukis.
Cicak.
Keju.
Roti Tawar.
Dan Kali Ini.
BAKWAN.

Un-type-able

"Some times I just wanna hide cos it's you I miss."
Christina Aguilera - Hurt

There's this little sigh between my cheery night out that night with my girls. We had fun. We had lot of fun till we're loaded of fun. But I sigh.

Between the laugh-out-loud I did with my girls, there was a glance of the smile I once saw with my very own eyes. There was also a glance of memory made of funny face picture I once ever received.

In the middle of that karaoke song, a part of my mind remember a song once told. In the middle of the vibe, I inhaled deep, exhaled slow.

I posted on that site, cheery. Happy. Fun. But there was this one scream that nobody could hear. There was this one tear God only see.

Zipped my lips and threw the key away. Closed my heart and made it numb. I didn't wanna feel it that night.

Neither would I type it.

I laughed. And laughed. And laughed. And laughed.

"Cos I miss you, I wish you were here."
Endah n Rhesa - Wish You Were Here

Undefined

Apabila aku tak mampu mendefinisikan suatu hubungan, maka biarlah hubungan itu melaju seperti air.
Kalanya surut maka surutlah.
Waktunya tenang maka mengalirlah.
Dan saat datang deras airnya, maka berdeburlah.
Sampai nanti berujung entah dimana.
Mungkin begitulah aku kepadamu.
Tak terdefinisi.
Tapi terasa.
-Fanyli

Me, my mind's currently playing with words phrases. More like a lame poetry phrase. I don't know... But I do like this phrase:

Kecuali, menunggumu itu satu hal yang pasti, pasti kubela hingga kaki tak merasakan lelah lagi.
-Moammar Emka, Dear You

If none of us are able to define,
I'd rather stay like this.
Cos I'm happy.
Even if it's undefined.